Week 3- (BF4)

 Week 3- (BF4)

Tampa, FL, 7/20, 5:58pm

Being with my partner this past week has brought my mind to the concept of love and relationships as it means to me in this "coming of age" period. Duos... twin flames... two halves of a whole... a lot of images of duality come to mind. To what extent can two separate things coexist? How much of a reward makes the risk worth it? 


This past week has been incredibly busy. Neither my partner nor I realized how much work goes into furnishing an apartment, so naturally, our days have been filled with Costco trips and Ikea builds. At one point, I found myself distraught, but I couldn't put what I was feeling into words quite yet. I decided to step back for a bit and create, which led me to this work. I realized that I was struggling to feel like we were a team during the building projects, among other things, and just generally disconnected from my partner. I was upset with him, but I didn't feel like I was allowed to be since my emotions were so overwhelming that it was hard to know why I was.

Through scrapbooking, I was able to organize and understand my feelings, so that I was better able to talk to my partner about them, which relieved both of us from feelings of tension. In talking together about the issue, we reinforced our ability to work as a team. Initially, the heart with the quote was not a part of my artwork, but after resolving our issue, I felt even more secure that even if we don't have it all together, even if we each have our little quirks and shortcomings, together we can work through it and become stronger... as a team.


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